Dogukan Candan

Well, I don’t know what to say. I am not really good at goodbyes as you know. While I have been coming to you, I said a lot of goodbyes, just because of you. Because you keep calling me wherever I go, because you couldn’t give up on me I kept coming back to you with leaving sad ones behind. They had a lot over the passing years because of you. I shouldn’t put the whole blame on you. I kept coming back to you because I was foolish enough not to leave you. 

You had this thing, that thing… The talent; your skill I really don’t know how to name it. You had all this power, to keep people with you. You don’t let them go to live their own life until you are satisfied with them. You keep doing it to everybody who has come to you… But I know why, really. You are all alone here. You don’t know what to do with yourself and you don’t wanna be left alone. You need people; you need me. 

You know I am laughing now. Because I had come to this realization. You brought us here, to yourself. From the beginning of time, somehow you managed to draw our life lines until it reaches you. You pulled us to yourself mysteriously. No matter what I say to you right now, you will keep doing that until you are all gone, until you are sinked deep in the ocean, until you are drown; until you are all alone with no powers in your hands. But… I understand. I feel you, really. You had to do this to me.

I can’t put the blame on you. You taught me a lot. You made me grow up. You made me understand how valuable missing someone is and being missed. You made me who I am right now. I had to be here with you, to company you in your tiny life. I thank you for all you did to me. Including those breakdowns I had over the course of our relationship. If I left a feeling in your heart, even a tiny one that will make you never forget me; I can’t be happier. Just be grateful to me that I have been very patient with you. No matter what you did, I just waited for you to calm down. Because I know you are hurt. You are hurt because of all these people have lived and living with you have done to you. I know you have seen a lot and can’t forget them. 

But I forgive you. I forgive you.

I love you.

But it is time to say goodbye now. I am going. Not very far, don’t you worry. Maybe I’ll even come back to you someday to make me feel more miserable than I do right now. But now I should go, you know. I have a family too, I have a girlfriend and they are waiting for me. They have been waiting for me for a long time.

Again, don’t make other people miserable any more. You had enough. You have got what you wanted, stop. Make people love you, or you will be all alone someday with no people to love you. You will go back in time to the beginning. That is my one and only advice to you.

Now let me go please. Let me go! No hard feelings ok?

Goodbye Cyprus. Goodbye. Be well. I love you.

Bye.